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16.3.08

Lovely movie, lovely song... but anyway I suppose I should provide a clip that isn't so crack addicted yes?

Here we go!

I know it seems like I'm insane and I'm a user and whatnot, and I'm actually beginning to get the feeling someone is stuffing me full of drugs because it's kinda insane that I should be getting all of these reactions without my knowledge of taking anything.

Anyway what I mean is that I have druggie vision and druggie sensation. Weird worms writithing inbetween my veins and clogging up the blood, making terrible bruises and penetrated skin. I'm dancing on a volcano and I'm trying not to mix things up and fall into it where my broken skin will just char and fall of me.

Maybe I should throw myself in as a form of rebirth. No amount of shadow can engulf me to hold me back anymore. I found the question and I found the answer. It did have to do with God as I had suspected and had to do with a.... hallucination? dream? mind trip? journey? I don't know what I would call it but it involved a man, a very sad man who had nothing at all to live for and yet he was trying to show me the way. Anyway the question was, can God be found in the shadows? God is the leading light, the holy spirit the burning flame on the bush. How could God be found in the darkness and the very damp the damned and the lost hated? Well I've discovered God isn't in the shadows. God free zone. So now I think I'm wrong and God is punishing me by forcing shadow into my veins and skin cause it is still crawling and itching and burning and I feel it move.

Freakin A. Blood and darkness don't mix no matter how hard I try, just like oil and water....

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

I love the movie the Dark Crystal, even though it is very strange. Maybe because it is very strange.

I don't know why God would be punishing you. I'd hope that he'd be too busy punishing people who deserve it. Shadows are only in your head.

<3 Hillary

Vanessa Godinez said...

Yeah great movie. I like it cause it's bizarre.

Yeah I don't think it's God, and I don't actually think it's really a punishment. But it's difficult to tell who God believes deserves to be punished.

Maybe they are, but I see them every where and like I've said they're not dark shadows, sometimes they're made of light. And I don't care if it's a contradiction their very essence is shadow. xP