Enshadowedment

The closer you get to the sun, to the eternal light... the more painful you begin to crash and burn. You can't blame the light however, you've only got yourself to blame. We've inflicted this pain when the light was there... guiding you and me on our paths. And yet we dare to turn our backs, injuring ourselves while the light continued to char us to the bone.

Trapped in an eternal struggle where we sometimes manage to engulf the light so it can leave us be from time to time. However, the light is persistant and continues to rise every morning at dawn where it returns with a new hope to engulf the world and our tired bodies are quickly consumed by it.

We have nowhere to hide, nowhere to run. I'm beginning to think it's more terrifying to leave it be, rather than the fear of facing it. I have to stop this, because I know you aren't. Now the light is disturbing my sleep. It slips into my veins ravaging my muscles and blood... deteriorating, destroying.

We are so close.... I've finally discovered you. Clearly I was never meant to. You never knew I could be so persistent. I was also surprised by your determination, because you helped me fight the light for this entire year so far. Your body isn't what it once was, you're becomming a husk... but isn't that what we all are? I don't want you to die and leave me, even though I know you'd return brighter in all your darkness as always. Maybe it would be better for me too... to leave you where you are now. If I delve any deeper, I fear something really bad may happen. I may wake with a huge repetence, a wounding debilitating gash that I won't be able to cover up.

Why is it so hot? This burning... this burning regret. You opened doors for me, but now I feel I've got to lock myself away. You guided me, now I've purposefully shredded the map you gave me and wandered off, somewhere far, somewhere you shouldn't be able to find me.

Despite our love... despair is much fonder, and I enjoy wallowing in it while the blood dries and I'm ready to begin anew. You can't do it, one more day of standing and fighting this light, you'll be gone.

You did this to yourself... you stupid beautiful shadow. You know the root of the word enlightenment don't you?

...

yes.... you did know... but you did it anyway....

you just never realized I never wanted it, even though I was constantly begging for it.

No. I did want it. I still want it. What I never realized was how painful it was.

No. I knew that too. I had a few discoveries... epiphanies.... revelations... of my own you know.

So.... why?

No. Thats' the ultimate question isn't it. It's our ultimatum.

Yes. I will find it, and I will rid us of this light forever.

Trust me. Lay yourself down and hide from it, I will come back for you.