If only four minutes could actually save me now. Dear lord, for my entire life I've suffered from chronic head/ear pain like ear infections. I don't remember how long it began, but it happens about, twenty times a year. Slightly ridiculous, right? I know. I don't know how it happened, maybe something part of my head is deformed on the inside. ha ha, freakin great. It got to a point where my doctor wanted to chop my skull in half and fix it, fuck that. I never went back to her again. Anyway, so my eardrum can essentially eventually burst from all of this or it can also destroy the bones in my ear which probably isn't even better. Along with that I suffer from severe nailbiting, oral fixation as in lip/cheek biting, chronic cavities from the acid. So basically here is my theory: I'm just falling apart bit by bit.
But seriously, is my head finally just physically exploding? Like it just can't handle all the shit that's been bottled up? Cause if that's so I don't mind erasing some of the memory in there. I wonder if it'll ever stop. Maybe I should have just let that doctor chop my head in half like she wanted to, leave me bald for a while. Make the freakin throbbing bleeding pain go away. This bites ass.